awakeBut then again if I was on the west coast, I wouldn't be cleaning the kitchen at 3:00 in the morning because someone would be complaining about the noise or just complaining.... I also could just be lazy at my parents house, it is a thought.
I think about the trade-offs, living very lean, missing my west coast dogs and my friends, the amount of swimming options available, but I also think about having a house to myself and being able to sit in sweats at 3:00 in the morning with J sleeping upstairs, hanging with the dogs and nobody questioning me except me.... There is no yelling or drama in this house, it is in the rules.
I also remember my mother doing these middle of the night insanity all through my growing up years. Everyone had to get up and clean house, the yelling, rages and the craziness and just wanting to get though it and go to sleep...
That is not what this is about, I just can't go back to sleep, pretty simple. Maybe I'm not becoming my Mother!
I was taking a time-release melatonin and I'm out of it. I do think that made a difference in my sleep patterns as much as I would like to blame it on J's snoring :-) It really isn't true, just some of it... I'm hoping to have enough money to buy some more of it soon and test that theory...
My kitchen looks presentable, clean enough to cook in, pretty much clean dishes and pots, and there is lunch for tomorrow,. it seems I'm already a little a head of the game... I would still kill a rubber chicken for water to swim in though! I even looked outside, no moon....
Hopefully this is good night and sweet dreams......
