Channelswim (channelswim) wrote,

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Getting my Mojo Back

For the last few years my life other than work and family has shrunk smaller and smaller.  I have gone backwards more than I was willing to admit.   When I came east I thought I had friends and found that not to be the case.  I wasn’t the person they wanted me to be I guess.  It hurt a lot and I avoided situations that might bring that to the surface.

In the last 6 months, I have lost my Dad, my brother was killed and my best friend (my pup Boo) died.  I also have expanded my family to include Tru Nor’Easter as well as Roo and Whoo.  What I didn’t know when I rescued Roo was it was a two way street.  She is rescuing me also.  Because she has a need to do many more athletic things and thrives on swimming and lure coursing, I have to break out of this small world I trapped myself in.  Tru is always up for a new adventure and Whoobs will go along ‘for pretty’ or to get wet.

I’m tired of staying at home, living in a small world on weekends. I’m not avoiding swims this summer and am traveling to dog events.  It turns out my pups like camping in the car as long as fun is involved.   It also turns out that I’m not the only one that does this and even the folks in the Winnebago didn’t judge.  I am unwilling to make friendships that are based upon who I am supposed to be or are one way these days.  I have learned to live on my own and now I will adventure on my own.

And for the record, you can take me as I am or you can exit stage left.  This is my life and I'm going to live it. 
Tags: living my life

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